But look at me. Here I am, wondering how I can be falling head over heels for the person who made me change my mind in the first place. How can life be so ironic that the kid who showed me that it's not worth being used be the one who's begging me to give it another shot? And Allison, in case you read this, I'm trying so hard to keep you in mind every step of the way, and the fact that you told me that I was too loyal to do anything. I want to still be that loyal. I want to keep my word. I want to follow through with something, want to show everyone I can say I'll push myself and actually do it. But I also think that my heart's telling me something. Is it possible that maybe, miracles do exist? Is it possible that he was sent to me to make me get rid of all the poison, then learn to be a better person through him?